

Mr. Vega
I didn't want this woman to be my nanny. She had no experience and a failed art career. What did she know about rearing children? She was my late wife's choice and I didn't too much care for the woman and she didn't care for me either.
Until all hell broke loose and the nanny was the only one my son could turn to. The only one we could rely on. She kept us going and then she wanted to leave too. Not a damn chance.
Faith
There could never be anything between me and Mr. Vega. He was the father of the boy in my charge. I was his nanny. Nothing more and nothing less.
The lines needed to be clear between him and me, but a nagging feeling told me, he would keep them blurred.
I didn't want this woman to be my nanny. She had no experience and a failed art career. What did she know about rearing children? She was my late wife's choice and I didn't too much care for the woman and she didn't care for me either.
Until all hell broke loose and the nanny was the only one my son could turn to. The only one we could rely on. She kept us going and then she wanted to leave too. Not a damn chance.
Faith
There could never be anything between me and Mr. Vega. He was the father of the boy in my charge. I was his nanny. Nothing more and nothing less.
The lines needed to be clear between him and me, but a nagging feeling told me, he would keep them blurred.

This is my first book by Xyla Turner. The cover intrigued me, but what really pulled me to pick it up and read it was a snippet I read on Facebook about a Super Mario haircut.
That being said, I really should spend more time reading the synopsis because I feel like I let myself down on this one. Maybe I deserve the 3 star rating and not the book. Not sure.
Mr. Vega's wife is dead (not a spoiler, it's in the synopsis). Is this an issue? Yes and No.
If she was already gone when the story started, my view might be a little different. I'm not sure. I'm just really conflicted.
I feel the need to explain myself. I have a personal bias. A "til death do us part" issue.
I know myself. I am a selfish person. I am a petty person. I have a jealous streak that makes me greener than Kermit the Frog. I am not noble. And I very well may have abandonment issues.
Therefore, if I happen to die before my husband, I am not going to grant him permission to love again or screw again or anything again. And I'm definitely not gonna spew some BS about him deserving happiness after I'm gone. When I go, he should spend the rest of his life taking care of our kids and pining away in despair for me.
Needless to say, I felt some MAJOR betrayal, that the dead wife obviously did not.
I tried to get past this. I really, really did.
If you take that part away, I liked the story. It was good. No over the top crazy. Just two people falling in love and trying to figure it out. I like Logan and I like Faith. And I feel like if their circumstances were a little bit different, I would've enjoyed this more.
It's MY issue. Not the book's issue.
But because of MY issue, I had so much inner turmoil while reading this.
If you remove my bias, 4 Stars.
And the only reason for that is because there were a lot of editing errors that really distracted me and some of the dialogue seemed out of place.
You know, I'm kind of mad at myself right now because I'm wondering if other people are really that noble about their spouses when they die. I just can't process it. In my mind saying "He/She would want you to be happy and move on" is just what people tell you to make you feel better about what you're doing.
If you are a better human than I am, then you should definitely give this a try. But if you're petty and jealous and a little psycho, like me, approach with caution.
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